Being unemployed for the last couple of months has been tough. Searching job sites like monster, dice, and craigslist often leaves me frustrated. Sending out 2-3 resumes a day and not getting word back from so many has been draining and really discouraging. As all these feelings came to a head yesterday, I ended last night by reading this prayer from The Divine Hours:

The Lord is my chosen portion; he is my strength and my might.

I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall be in my mouth.

Though the fig tree does not blossom and no fruit is on the vines,

yet I will gives thanks to the Lord, I will sing praises to him.

Though the produce of the olive fails and the fields yield no food,

yet I will praise the name of God, I will magnify him with thanksgiving.

Though the flock is cut off from the fold and there is no herd in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will exult in the God of my salvation.

This prayer really gave me a lot of peace. It reminded me that even when I feel like all my work is futile and fruitless, God is still good and worthy of praise. 

trust is hard.

"may all your expectations be frustrated

may all your plans be thwarted

may all your desires be withered into nothingness

that you may experience the powerless and poverty of a child

and sing and dance in the love of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit”